MY TESTIMONY OF HOW JESUS HEALED MY LOW BLOOD

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I promised I’d tell my testimony of being in the hospital last week..for low blood anemia…when my body was in pain and I couldn’t walk, talk or eat from being so weak and a fever of 105. I was shaking and after dealing with the pain for 2 days in my home I forced myself to drive to the ER. All I could do was call on Jesus as I was withering in the hospital bed…and He healed me before the doctors gave me anything. I promised my story would be as detailed bc if I am gonna tell about what He did for me and when the doctors were confused I wanna tell it right… it’s been so hard to explain because what He did for me was …unexplainable.

I want my message to be right. As I was in that bed as the doctors were trying to find the root of my fever and anemia I was saying “If you can heal a blind man, a bleeding woman, a deaf man and a sick girl then I know you can heal me.” At one point I was worried about calling on Jesus because I was ashamed I hadn’t been to church in so long although I never turned away from Jesus but I used to beย  praying to God, my ancestors, (sometimes deities ๐Ÿ™…โ€โ™€๏ธ)..and would leave out one person..JESUS (over the years) I was in that sick bed saying “Why are my spirits telling me to call on you when I have spent so long away from my relationship with you?”ย  I grew up a strict Christian child in the church, got saved at 10 years old knew my bible from beginning to end, but later I did my own thing.ย  I had always been a messenger all my life and I work as a spiritual advisor using my gift that have helped thousands, but God got my attention and messaged me deeper than ever.

The spirit of the lord told me “Dont worry about how long it’s been since you’ve grown away from me…because I can get you back on instantly as fast as you fall in love with me. I will knock and you all you have to do is open your door (your heart) and let me step in. That will make up for all the time apart from me. If your faith is doubtless then I will make a way.”

As soon as I heard that and believed the message, my fever dropped, my back and stomach stopped aching and the chills and fever that had me shaking stopped. The nurses saw that I was better but still gave me IV’s, meds but decides to keep me in the hospital for extra care. They told me the medication a doctor had me on had caused so much and another day later they said they aren’t sure how the fever died down . They gave me a blood transfusion my last day just to be sure I’d be okay lol but it must have been holy blood because my visions and intuition and power had increased. I know the angels were roaming that hospital because I could have felt them there.

I knew they were working with the nurses and the doctors and the staff to take care of me correctly and they did…as soon as I found out the doctor that took care of me was related to me through my deceased grandmother Mary and a nurse that suddenly walked into my room to check on me happened to be a cousin I hadn’t seen since we were little girls.. (sent by my late great aunt Lena; her grandmother ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ˜ฑ) I knew they were sending me signs and signals. I KID YOU NOT!!!

ALL THE SIGNS WERE COMING OUT OF NOWHERE THAT ANGELS WERE WITH ME AND JESUS WAS WITH ME… I went in that hospital sick and weak for 3 days and rose better and stronger than EVER (like Jesus after 3 days) I realized I can’t do it without Him and haven’t been able to put my bible down ever since because I wanna keep that prescence I felt from Him going. It’s a good feeling.

I remember when I always thought I needed to wear crystal bracelets for protection but I need no tools..crystals, candles etc is good for the mood but no need to rely on those things when your faith in Jesus is bullet proof. You don’t have to be super religious to have Him in your life (I’m very spiritual) but if you have a relationship with Him and if you live right and let Him use you for guidance and not follow up the mind control that evil people have used through Him then that is all that matters.

All I can see is that He never left me, He gives second chances, He wants you to live a happy life and He wants your faith. If I hadn’t called on Him I’m not sure I would have gotten a good report in the hospital. I just thought I’d share that bc I owed it to Him..He doesn’t require much but love and for you to tell what He has done for you so others will believe. I can’t without Him. Since being home I have been ENERGIZED, HAPPIER AND I FEEL HEALTHIER!!! ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿฅฐโ˜บ๏ธ Had that not happened to me, I wouldn’t have been as closer to Him. Thank you Jesus!

He’s Just Not That Into You..or He’s Just That Intimidated, Sis!

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Hey you. Yeah you. The one sobbing and crying constantly checking your phone to see if you have a miss call or a text. You’ve already sent him 3 messages before he has even responded. You’re checking his page constantly and seeing whose photos he’s liking as you dwell in self pity. Okay. STOP IT! Pull yourself together and let it go like Elsa.. (Insert cheesy song from Disney’s Frozen here __________.)

Women go into overthinking mode and an ego reduction once they feel a guy has lost interest or has pulled away. Maybe it’s not you, maybe it’s him, maybe it’s you or…maybe he’s just intimadated. Have you ever thought of that? Men are very nervous at times and they don’t show it. I have had this happened to me in 2011; especially where some guys used to ghost me. The weird thing was that they even told me they felt intimadated because I was beautiful or was an author.

Total opposite and confusing right? ๐Ÿ™„

It seems backwards, right? Yes I know. I would think that being beautiful and doing something that showcased my talent wasn’t anything to make anyone scared; but sometimes it does. (For the scary guys who were afraid of chances, yeah.) So before you rest your head on your tear soaked pillow self sabotaging yourself, keep in mind that THAT could be a reason as to why your knight in shining armour ghosted you. (or has pulled away.) Sometimes people have things going on in their lives, but if they wanted you then they will make sure they show their existence sometimes….in fear of losing you.

If he ghosted you due to lack of interest, he could have been doing you a favor. You did nothing, but sometimes the chemistry may not be there and the universe designs it. (It’s called mutual connection.)

Not to mention that sometimes you are blinded by illusions (believing he is amazing when he hasn’t even done amazing things for you; so instead you are just imagining what it would be like and falling for a daydream. Women do this all the time when they get too excited too soon and it leads to getting hurt. Be careful..move step by step…that’s why they call it ‘building a relationship.)

When you are in the early stage don’t start daydreaming about the future yet. If he was never in a relationship with you then save your energy for someone that’s worth deserving of it. If he treats you like an option and never a priority then you have an answer. Save yourself some time and use this time to heal and regrow…regrow like green grass. (Just watch out for snakes ๐Ÿ˜š๐Ÿ)

Growing Up Submissive

๐Ÿ˜ŠI grew up in a very dominant and submissive household ๐Ÿก lol My father was dominant and paid all the bills ..where my mom was a quiet submissive housewife. A little homemaker. She was never a loud argumentive woman with my father…probably because of his temper lol

Because of their dominant/submissive traits, I grew up a softy and quiet around others lol I would feel weird because I wasn’t loud or could get an attitude like other girls and it would be something I remember wishing I had. Lol It was also why I was the subject of being bullied. ๐Ÿคฆโ€โ™€๏ธ

Sometimes we become the way we are from what we’re around as children; although both my parents took good care of us and loved us. Sometimes I wanted to question mother about why she was so quiet as a wife, but I never did. I figured it was a part of her nature since she grew up in an older generation. I noticed I developed her traits.

I see her as Super Woman, the way she raised me and my sister and also looked out for my other cousins when needed. She always cooked 3 meals daily for us and cleaned the entire home, did our hair and do almost everything. (It’s also why I like to do so many things.) If our clothes needed stiching or washing or if we were sick, mama took care care of it all.

Part of the reason why I was always quiet and shy came from watching her growing up. Everyone would always say “You’re so quiet. You’re always so giving. You go all out when you love someone.” Yes but sometimes being raised into submissiveness can be painful bc sometimes you are easily to get hurt or used for how giving you are. A lot of times in relationships I’d have a habit of saying “sorry.”

The best advice I can give if you are submissive is to make sure you aren’t giving more than you are receiving. Don’t give your heart to someone who doesn’t deserve it..especially if the person isn’t married to you. You’ll be hurt multiple. ๐Ÿ™‚

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Dear Future Hubby, Here Is What You Should Know Before Meeting My Parents…

20200604_113842Dear Future Husband, (lol)

ย Being a woman that has caught the bouquet in her sister’s wedding, I have decided to take notes for you. With that being said, you must know a background on my parents. Lol In order to marry me, you have to go through my parents first. Actually, go through my father first before asking me (according to my mom..because they say it’s respectful lol)

Here are some tips. (He is a grumpy old man and he asks questions back to back; sometimes before you have a chance to answer.) The way that I get on his good side is by letting him win debates or telling him he is right just so he’ll shut up lol ๐Ÿคฆโ€โ™€๏ธ He is from the ancient times and doesn’t know much about technology either.

*1. He admires guys that work hard and if you love sports cars and baseball, it’s a plus. Long ago, I only had 2 guys got meet my fatherย  and one did not click with him lol

One guy tried to bring up football and my father cut him off ๐Ÿ˜‚ He was like, “Oh nope. I’m into baseball and basketball. I don’t watch a lot of football unless it’s superbowl.” ๐Ÿคฆโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ˜‚ (The guy was so embarassed lol)

My mom is usually the first one and my dad is for when things are really serious.. So I usually wait before letting anyone meet him…ย ย 

*2. If you have a degree or have served in the military he likes that too. He is impressed with hard work and education. He likes that my brother in law is good with computers and graduated the top of his class at USC. So if you’re smart too, that’s a big plus. He admires hardworkers and providers. He believes men should be the head of the house.

As for my mom, she is the sweet one. If you can sweet talk her and show her that you care about me then she welcomes you with open arms. She loves baking and cooking, so to win her over, you need to know some good recipies or love to eat her amazing meals. If you can brag on her cooking then she goes crazy. Lol ๐Ÿ˜‚

I often ponder on what it will be like when I am asked to be married. My parents are very old fashioned and I would love their acceptance and blessing for a healthy marriage. What are your thoughts when it comes to meeting parents or being introduced? As for me, I’m a nervous wreck. ๐Ÿ˜‚ (but it’a a good thing.)

Sincerely,

Your Future Bride ๐Ÿ‘ฐ๐Ÿพ

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Is Your Bae’s Actions Loud Or Muted?

img_0008 I get so many emails from people I do tarot readings for asking me, Why is he doing this?Why is he doing that? Is he still into me? Honestly you don’t need a psychic to answer that question. The proof is right there. If someone is making you question them and you’re not getting clarity then just save yourself time, heal, keep to yourself. and inhale. exhale. move on. Step away.

It may seem hard to do but it’s all you can do for your sanity. If they want you then they will be there when you leave; if not then you have a clear answer. Some answers don’t need verbalism. Words can mean more if action is put behind them.

As an author, I believe actions and words should both go hand in hand. I am not my best at expressing myself with verbal words as I am with written words and my action. ACTIONS ARE IMPORTANT THOUGH! Even if a woman plays hard to get her actions of interest and being flirty is still there.

I think the longest it ever took me to move on from someone was probably 9 months.ย  I remember I wasted time and tears trying to figure them out and questioning myself. I can remember holding back on my dating life because I was still being hopeful for someone who portrayed little action for me. It was torture and pain and time wasted, which is why I think the smartest thing a confused person should do is move on or just take some space.. (before it gets worse and ruins your esteem.)ย  You’re in a confused rut trying to match someone’s actions with their words and it isn’t on the same wave length lol So hopefully you won’t torture yourself and blame yourself.

You deserve the same amount of energy in return as you put out. You will see how much easier it will be. You will find these 2 answers; either they’ll express their actions or they give you words to hang on to..like a puppet’s string..controlling you.

Each day is a new chapter and a new page to write. You’ll never know who you may meet or how better it could be. Don’t hold on to just figuring out. What are the actions saying?

 

 

Did Dating Guys With Sports Cars Led Me To Get My Own Sports Car?

20200527_111219I was asked what made me get a Camaro..lol I got a Camaro because I would be impressed whenever I dated guys with sports cars. The rush of excitement I’d get whenever they’d speed on the highway with me beside them.

The car wax and the nice rims.

The looks and stares that other people would give to see who was inside the car. ๐Ÿ˜‚ PRICELESS!

I felt like a movie star.

I’ve always liked when guys drove sports cars sooooo I decided to save up and impress myself lol I wanted the same feeling all the time without thinking the only time I could get in a sports car was through men I dated.

The other reason was because when I was a little girl, Iย  saw this skinny blond woman driving a red sportscar. Iย  had to have been around 10 or 11 years old. I told my dad that when I grow up that I was going to get one like her. (pointing at the lady who inspired me. ๐Ÿ˜‚) Well….he fussed with me for hours and said I couldn’t get one because I wasn’t born with a silver spoon in my mouth. ๐Ÿ˜‚ I didn’t let that mental doubt succumb me.ย  Now whenever dad comes over he is taking photos of my car and always asking to take it for a ride. Lolย  ๐Ÿ˜‚ However, I’d like to get a Masarati next but I am thankful. Word of advice: Don’t put a limit or a hold on what you want. Don’t think you have to get the easy way to get a small piece of the big things. Ya digggg?

 

I’m A Flower Still Waiting To Be Given Flowers…

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๐Ÿ’Okay so I can imagine all the weird facial expressions that people would give me when I told them Iโ€™ve never received flowers from a man before. Iโ€™ve had people tell me, โ€œYeah right. You lying!โ€ but honestly Iโ€™m not. sips tea โ˜•๐Ÿ˜‚ By the way, tulips are my favorite flowers. ๐Ÿ˜Š So I guess Iโ€™m just a bit old fashioned, huh? I love nice things, but the little gestures means so much. Receiving a text that says โ€œGood morning baby, good morning queen.โ€ย  is the closest thing to receiving flowers sometimes.

The feeling of importance and being on someoneโ€™s thoughts is just like virtually handing me flowers. I get all giggly and roll around in bed whenever I’d receive a morning text. I can only imagine what it will be like when I am gifted flowers ๐Ÿ˜‚. Sigh. When dating, I never ask a man because I wait to see if he will so I am waiting ๐Ÿ˜‚ (or hinting. Lol)

Not sure if men still think flowers are a sweet gesture because times have changed. I love flowers because I enjoy gardening and growing flowers. Flowers remind me of a beautiful woman thatโ€™s rare to find. They should be cared for and nurtured, theyโ€™re delicate and they attract bees and butterflies (just like women attract men and are pursued.)

The sight and smell of flowers always uplifts my mood and they are so naturally beautiful within and out. Itโ€™s amazing how something created from God can grow from the earth and just be a simple expression to save a relationship at times. Not many women care about flowers as much as I do, Iโ€™m told. I was told that some men donโ€™t believe in giving flowers anymore because they think all women want material things.ย 

ย What I am saying is, while I don’t mind being spoiled, a bouquet of flowers makes me happy. ๐Ÿ˜Š I know I could have just asked guys and had them given to me, but I donโ€™t want to to ask for special moments like that. I want whom ever Iโ€™m with to just surprise me and catch me off guard. I love surprises!! ๐Ÿ˜Š I used to feel like a misfit because so many girls and women have already experienced that moment and here I am at age 34 still awaiting like a 15 year old at a sleepover ; giggling about what her first kiss will be like lol

The good thing about it is that who ever gives me my flowers will be the first, making him someone to stand out than anyone from my past. ๐Ÿ˜Š

Iโ€™ve had guys tell me they would have given me flowers but it was usually the ones I wasnโ€™t interested in lol (topsy turvy, huh?) lol My best friend told me that his girlfriend is 35 and that he was the first to give her flowers. Everyone has their season or flower season. Everyone has their once in a life time moment that happens on itโ€™s own without force.

I remember thinking, how is it that they call me Iโ€™m beautiful but I havenโ€™t received flowers yet? I’d be thinking, ‘Is there something wrong with me?’ Hahaha but no, there is nothing wrong with me and I donโ€™t want any other woman to feel that way either. I see it as God holding off on that moment so the man meant for me will show off. God saves things that are meant to be special for you for the special person and at the special time. Just as when you have to wait until Christmas to open your amazing gifts, it will feel more special. I have a bucket list of things I am still waiting to do that I havenโ€™t experienced yet with a man and I know itโ€™s a sign from God that those moments will be shared with the one I may marry …making it the best!!!!๐Ÿ˜‰

So raise your glasses and make a toast ๐Ÿฅ‚ for knowing that your inexperience is a gift awaiting to be unwrapped. ..

For the moment, see yourself as a flower awaiting to be sniffed by a handsome and rare bee. ๐ŸŒบ๐Ÿ

How I Maintained My Curves Without Working Out HARD For 3 Weeks.

I haven’t worked out in about 3 weeks because I don’t want to lose any of my good weight. I’d like to keep some of my fun body parts lol I worked out for 100 days straight ever since New Years Eve 2019 (big goal) and I recently finished a 10k (another big goal!) When I work out hard it’s usually to either lose or to build. ..So although I’ve reached my goal, I’ve been doing light cardio to maintain everything and watching what I put in my mouth.

Sometimes people reach their goal and not sure what to do after getting there. They either gain it all back or lose what they don’t want to lose.

If you don’t pay attention sometimes then that’s when all the uncessary weight comes from. (and that’s what I try to be cautious of.) So I’ve been taking it easy..but still being physically active daily and choosing my foods carefully.   Next week I’ll be back to building; lifting my weights for lower body and keeping my core toned. I never really lift heavy weights on upper body. If I need to tone my arms I use aerobics for that area. I try to keep a feminine form, but I love creating a sexy cut in my back.  ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š

To Be Envied Or Inspire..

To be envied or to inspire??..that is the question. I had a girl told me she used to be jealous of me and I was a bit surprised.. Honestly I’d rather inspire people than to be envied. If people are envious then you have no friends and I only have a few…. always wanted a big group of positive girlfriends. I feel if we inspire others then there will be no room for envy because people will be motivated to become their best self. Your energy will light theirs up just from yours being bright.ย  Ever been around certain people that just made you feel an energy boost just from being around them? That’s what you should feel and who you should be around.

If not, be the one to help them feel positive by first working on yourself and becoming your greatest version.

When I’d find out someone felt that way I’d be like “There is no need to be if you knew all the sad things I overcame.” I am thankful I can use that to motivate others. God kept me and I am still here.ย  Be thankful. Smile. Love. Focus on what’s best for you in this life you have. ๐Ÿ™ƒ๐ŸŒž Life is too short. Great memories last longer. Make them.

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Finished My 10k Run- Cooper River Bridge Virtual Run! ๐Ÿƒโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿƒโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿƒโ€โ™€๏ธ

Alas! I completed my first 10k run/walk. The goal had been on my mind for months so I signed up for the Cooper River Bridge Run months ago. Although the Covid 19 pandemic caused the race to be canceled in April, participants had the option to complete it virtually or wait until the late summer of August. Disappointed, I took matters into my own hands and continued to complete the goal I had my mind set on. I transferred over to the virtual race. At first I was I was like, man I really just want to run over the bridge with the Charleston batterty around me, the river and the marinas. What fun would it be? But of course, when I found out that hundreds of participants were having fun doing the run virtually within their neighborhood or preferred location I hopped on board. Sometimes you have to turn the worst situation into a positive one and not give up.

Grabbing my tennis shoes and my yoga pants and tee, I tossed my natural kinky hair into a bun and picked the location of our local lake park to complete my 10k. Nevermind ignoring the safety cautions for Covid 19, I quickly put on my medical mask and hit the ground running.

The atmosphere was refreshing and the people around me were friendly; some were fishing, riding bikes or getting in their healthy mile.

Adding more power to my walk, I kept going- harder and harder. A group of friends walked together. They spoke. I spoke and smiled; realizing my smile was unnoticable under my mask. I thought it was a positive thing for them to be doing; walking in a group together to meet their fitness goals.

2 miles in within 35 minutes. Great! ONLY 4 miles to go!

I ran some. I walked some. Ran some. My nose ran and eyes watered from the wind, but I couldn’t stop then. I kept on going. I kept pushing myself. By the time I made it to my 5th mile people were staring at me as if I were crazy because I was going around the park so many times. An hour in. Almost there. I was dizzy. I was thirsty. I kept going. I couldn’t give up. The sun was burning my big forehead, but it was just giving me the vitamin D I needed. No harm done.

Kids were fishing with their father as the sun was setting in the distance; a beautiful mist of orange over the horizon.

Almost there! Almost there! ๐Ÿ• 

Damn! I left my bottle of water in the car.

My mouth is dry!

But…I won’t stop. Can’t stop!

An elderly couple was in my way walking their pup, it’s fluffy tail wagged in front of them. I ran around them to get ahead. I needed more space.

My mom’s annoying self texted me. ๐Ÿคฆโ€โ™€๏ธUgghh! Can’t she see I’m busy? Lol

Mama: You almost done?

Me: Yes mama! Geez!

Mama: Okay! Look behind you and be careful.

Me: Duhhh

Putting my phone away, I looked down at my tracker. Phew. A few seconds left.

6.21miles….6.22 miles … I did it!!! Although I could have done better, I didn’t beat myself up. My mask was annoying my breathing and my mom kept texting ๐Ÿ˜‚ but I am still happy! I did it! I didn’t back out! It was my first 10k and it was a big challenge for me! Something I never thought I could do and something I’m blessed and was able to do. This will definitly help me get better and see the difference in my next 10k! I am so thrilled! We should all be thankful we’re able to walk and move around. It’s a blessing! Get up and get moving! Set a healthy goal with being active. I did!! Now I must screenshot my results to the Cooper River Bridge people and receive a medal!!!!! ๐Ÿ˜Œ๐Ÿ†๐Ÿ…๐Ÿ…๐Ÿ…

Of course, I staggered back to my car and went home to soak in a bubble bath. It was NEEDED! ๐Ÿ˜‚