Maybe She Was An Angel…

Have you ever had a friendly connection with certain people because of their energy and their vibe? They’re the kind of people that make you say, to them, “I love your energy!” because it’s what they pass along and spread to you. The next thing you know, you are in a good feeling because of them. These are the kind of people/friends you need in your life to have a positive life. That kind of experience happened to me last year.

Last summer, I would always see this elderly lady at the park getting in her miles a day. She’d always carry a stick with her and walk for what seemed like hours. She’d walk by me and smile a gentle smile everytime. One morning my car wouldn’t start. As I was sitting in the car she came up to me and asked if I needed help. I didn’t know the reason why my car wouldn’t start but she popped open my hood and told me my battery had died and that she would jump it for me. Relieved and embarassed at the same time, I thanked her. She went on to tell me the story of how she learned things from her husband and the good ole days. Moments later, a few minutes of chatting with her became an hour of laughing in conversation in the parking lot.

She told me her name was Lily and that she walks from 8am until 10am almost every morning. She told me she was in her seventies and that walking helped with her blood pressure and diabeties. I told her that my mom had the same issue and she said, “Yes, well she definitely needs to start walking.”

Later, I ended up getting my mom to walk with me and she started to feel brand new and was glad I talked to her into it. Had it not been for Mrs. Lily my mom wouldn’t have gotten the courage with me to walk. (I had been asking her for years to go on walks with me lol)

A new year came and I had gotten a new car. I would continue to go to the park and inhale the fresh air over the cascading lake, but my sweet Mrs. Lily was no where to be found. I would say a silent prayer that she was okay and that I’d meet her again one day. One evening as I was walking, I was hoping I’d walk by her. (I was losing hope that I ever would see her again.) Somehow, I noticed a lady that looked like Mrs. Lily, but she was thinner and had a grey afro. She smiled at me with that familiar gentle smile and I gasped saying, “Mrs. Lily?! Is that you?” 😊 I was so happy to see my friend again and she was happy to see me too. I explained to her how I always hoped to see her again and she told me she started coming to walk at 6am with a few friends. We caught up for a few minutes, but I really wished it was longer. We said our see you laters and went our own way…hoping to have another friendly encounter with each other again. That was the last time I saw her and I’ll never forget her. I wish I had asked for a way to stay connected with her, but I didn’t want to seem creepy lol

I would question if Mrs Lily were an angel because I never ran into her anymore since then. She had this grey hair like white snow and had that grandmotherly feeling. Sometimes just talking to her instantly made me vibrate high and she was filled with high vibrational energy. Well, angels are known to vibrate high. Unfortunatly you never run into these people again and sometimes you do.

Why is that?

No one knows.

Maybe she was an angel. 😇

Finished My 10k Run- Cooper River Bridge Virtual Run! 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

Alas! I completed my first 10k run/walk. The goal had been on my mind for months so I signed up for the Cooper River Bridge Run months ago. Although the Covid 19 pandemic caused the race to be canceled in April, participants had the option to complete it virtually or wait until the late summer of August. Disappointed, I took matters into my own hands and continued to complete the goal I had my mind set on. I transferred over to the virtual race. At first I was I was like, man I really just want to run over the bridge with the Charleston batterty around me, the river and the marinas. What fun would it be? But of course, when I found out that hundreds of participants were having fun doing the run virtually within their neighborhood or preferred location I hopped on board. Sometimes you have to turn the worst situation into a positive one and not give up.

Grabbing my tennis shoes and my yoga pants and tee, I tossed my natural kinky hair into a bun and picked the location of our local lake park to complete my 10k. Nevermind ignoring the safety cautions for Covid 19, I quickly put on my medical mask and hit the ground running.

The atmosphere was refreshing and the people around me were friendly; some were fishing, riding bikes or getting in their healthy mile.

Adding more power to my walk, I kept going- harder and harder. A group of friends walked together. They spoke. I spoke and smiled; realizing my smile was unnoticable under my mask. I thought it was a positive thing for them to be doing; walking in a group together to meet their fitness goals.

2 miles in within 35 minutes. Great! ONLY 4 miles to go!

I ran some. I walked some. Ran some. My nose ran and eyes watered from the wind, but I couldn’t stop then. I kept on going. I kept pushing myself. By the time I made it to my 5th mile people were staring at me as if I were crazy because I was going around the park so many times. An hour in. Almost there. I was dizzy. I was thirsty. I kept going. I couldn’t give up. The sun was burning my big forehead, but it was just giving me the vitamin D I needed. No harm done.

Kids were fishing with their father as the sun was setting in the distance; a beautiful mist of orange over the horizon.

Almost there! Almost there! 🕠

Damn! I left my bottle of water in the car.

My mouth is dry!

But…I won’t stop. Can’t stop!

An elderly couple was in my way walking their pup, it’s fluffy tail wagged in front of them. I ran around them to get ahead. I needed more space.

My mom’s annoying self texted me. 🤦‍♀️Ugghh! Can’t she see I’m busy? Lol

Mama: You almost done?

Me: Yes mama! Geez!

Mama: Okay! Look behind you and be careful.

Me: Duhhh

Putting my phone away, I looked down at my tracker. Phew. A few seconds left.

6.21miles….6.22 miles … I did it!!! Although I could have done better, I didn’t beat myself up. My mask was annoying my breathing and my mom kept texting 😂 but I am still happy! I did it! I didn’t back out! It was my first 10k and it was a big challenge for me! Something I never thought I could do and something I’m blessed and was able to do. This will definitly help me get better and see the difference in my next 10k! I am so thrilled! We should all be thankful we’re able to walk and move around. It’s a blessing! Get up and get moving! Set a healthy goal with being active. I did!! Now I must screenshot my results to the Cooper River Bridge people and receive a medal!!!!! 😌🏆🏅🏅🏅

Of course, I staggered back to my car and went home to soak in a bubble bath. It was NEEDED! 😂

You See Their Rainbows,🌈 But Maybe They’ve Had Storms…. ⛈

Sometimes people will hate on you for no reason before they know your whole story. Lol WELL….I’m not perfect. My body was never as fit. My skin isn’t that perfect (I’m just a genius with how to do makeup lol) Sometimes I talk so fast you may not understand me but I love it.  I was never the person I am now. I went thru some deeeep hell during the ages 18-23 so I don’t even know how I survived. God and His angels had to have got me through so mucg.  If you hate on someone (or maybe throw shade) please stop and think for a second and maybe be happy for them. You may not even know what they had to go through before they got blessed. You may not know how many jobs turned them down before they got that promotion. Maybe they got their license late in life before they got a Camaro  *hint hint* You may not know what they been through before they got that wedding ring 
I heard this girl tell me, “Renita I don’t be seein how you do so much and look so good with all you have going on. You’re an author and you started some businesses.”

I was flattered but girl, I learned a lot. I’m a student of life but now I’m the teacher. For one, if you want to be happy in life you have to learn to be happy by depending on happiness with yourself…know thyself..then you can be happy with someone …bc it’s healthier that way.  Never feel like you can’t be happy UNLESS you have someone. Be happy to share your happiness WITH someone but already be happy and work on you.  If you want to be successful then you need a plan, you need effort and to follow through. Learn to save some money and be wise.

Love you, 🥰
Renita XOXO

So Who Was Billie Jean? Hmmm

I’ve been listening to Michael Jackson’s Thriller album all day and I noticed that he mentions Billie Jean in his Wanna Be Starting Something song. In this song he says ‘she is always talking and that her mouth is a motor. He even resumes to sing that, ‘if you can’t feed a baby then don’t have a baby.’ In the Billie Jean song he is referring to being baby trapped basically…lol (The kid is not my son!)

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Do you think maybe someone tried to trap him with a child in the 80s? Or do you think he did this to add a story line to the album? I think it’s very interesting and very creative if he mentions this to give us a hint of a secret or to add a story to the album.

Michael was such a creative person and that’s what I always loved about him. He had so many women chasing after him who probably lied, but we’ll never know. This is an interesting clue that I just find amusing. None of it is true, but I am so curious after listening to this album.

I decode too much and it’s a habit. It’s a hobby I need to take a break from lol Rest in peace to the beautiful king of pop. His music and his dancing touched the hearts of many and may he forever live on. I have always thought Michael was an angel in disguise who came here to change the world with his God given talent.

Still Searching For My Chic Tribe In 2020! I NEED SOME GIRLFRIENDS!!!!! 😂

I love making friends with women when I travel. I always give a compliment and we’ll hit it off and then I’ll be like, why didn’t I ask for her facebook ? Lol (then I don’t see them anymore.) Sometimes it can be hard to find friends with some women, especially when society makes them think we need to compete. No offense or not to sound cocky, but if you are an attractive female it makes it even hard. If you have a diverse personality it can be hard too. I am a little of both. I am very careful and extra nice when I try to make friends.

Some women make it seem like because I like to get dolled up, that it means I must think I’m better. Nah. I am not that way at all, but we can both feel like we are magical. 😊 We should feel like a powerful group when we get together instead.

We can encourage each other with inspiration and motivation to make each other better. I am not interested in that competition or envy stuff. I am never the envious or competitive type, but I would find it hard to fit in. You can’t be friends if you seek or worry on that. I don’t want that at all.

Honestly, I just want to find my chic tribe. I want a bond with like minded women like myself. No drama. No competition. Just a good time. Good laughs and discussing the topic of men over good drinks. 🍸🍸😂

If you have a man problem, I want our group of friends to come over so you won’t be up crying all night. (with a gallon of Ben & Jerry’s ice cream. 😂)

To say I am popular on social media, I only have 2 close friends in reality that I talk to. One is married with a family of her own and one lives with his girlfriend in Miami. The married friend is like a sister to me and I wish I could make her into a clone because we have been best friends since college. (but she lives an hour and a half away in Charleston. 😫 )

I have always felt more more like myself talking to the same energy as hers or with guy friends (or feminine gay men lol) So I’m kind of just a loner waiting on building my clique. 😂 I am into so many different things so I hope others accept that and click with my diverse side. Lol

I know finding more friends is an insecurity I must work on. This is one of my goals for 2020; to find some real life friends that click with me. It can seem hard, but I am still looking to find my girls. I want some friends that love to go to the gym, do 5ks, have a wine and painting girls night out, go see movies, comedy shows. I know they exist lol

Ladies, Start Your Self Love Journey: THIS IS MY STORY..THE GOOD AND THE BAD OF HOW I GOT TO WHERE I AM ❤

Women always ask me how do I manage self love and confidence. Girl, it took me some years! 🙂 Lol I was NEVER EVER as confident as I am today. I grew up as a energetic child always having fun and competing in pageants, school plays and played softball. I was a creative child who always received support from my family so that is where the root of my confidence started. This is why it’s important to support and encourage children so they can grow up always having a passion to acheive.

In junior high school, I would always get bullied and it would lower some of my confidence. This is why it’s important to be around positive or friendly people.

My REAL self love journey started in 2012 after surviving a 2005 sexual assault incident while in college; which would lead to self abuse in my early 20s. Although I would accomplish so many great things, it would steal so much of the confidence I grew up with. I would think it was impossiable to get it all back. So this is what I did. It took me 7 full years to recover from mental pain and then another 7 years to re build my self love. It took me 14 years to get to where I am today. :O

I am thankful that I am also able to inspire other women and preach about the importance of loving yourself and knowing yourself.  Just bc you say someone is beautiful and you might be hating on them, you don’t know their story. lol You don’t know what they went through. I believe some of the greatest people are the ones that survived the storms and did amazing things afterwards. Never let your trials defeat you. I challenge you to focus on repairing from your pain and then start a self love journey. ❤ Not everyone is perfect. Trust 💯 If I can do it, you can do it.
-ReNita XOXO 💋